SEVENTEEN - DON'T WANNA CRY LYRIC

Oke jadi kali ini aku mau nge-review lagu dari salah satu boyband korea yang beberapa tahun terakhir ini lagi booming banget. SEVENTEEN. Wooooo *heboh satu RT*
Awalnya aku ga terlalu penasaran sama lagu ini, karena kupikir dari judulnya aja udah melow, kagak ada dance nya ini. Kupikir. Tapi aku salah besar guys. Jadi lagu ini tuh dance nya hacep banget uhh. Hot. Ganteng. Awas puasa pada batal. Memang kalo masalah dance aku bener-bener suka sama gerakan-gerakan dance nya SEVENTEEN ini, karena pertama selain gerakan nya emang powerful dan ribet, mereka juga kompak jadi tuh kalo diliat bagus banget. Duhh -.-
Aku suka sih lagunya, tapi ga terlalu suka banget. But the important thing is.. liriknya meaningful banget guys. Kejang-kejang kek kecoa sakaratul maut udah aku liat liriknya. Memang salah kenapa aku buka ini lagu kemarin pas hati aku lagi kempot tak bernyawa, dan lagu ini bikin hati aku makin makin potek. Wanjerr asli deh artinya.
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Hangul
울고 싶지 않아
울고 싶지 않아
사랑해서, 사랑한다는 말이
부족해서, 그 어떤 말을 꺼내봐도
너 하나만 아끼던 날 두고서 어디 간 거니
내가 싫어 어어 져서 멀리 간 거니

장난치지 마, 거기 있는 거 알아
나타날 거 같아, 마냥 기다리다
널 찾아가야 돼 찾아가야 돼
지금 울면 못 볼지 모르니까

울고 싶지 않아
울고 싶지 않아
눈물은 많지만
울고 싶지 않아

낯설지 않은 길, 이 길이 낯설다
아는 길 맞는지 내게 또 묻지요
혹시나 그 사람 날 찾고 있지 않을까
나는 지금 널 찾고 있어요

장난치지 마, 거기 있는 거 알아
나타날 거 같아, 마냥 기다리다
널 찾아가야 돼 가야 하는데
눈물 고여 점점 흐려져

울고 싶지 않아
울고 싶지 않아
눈물은 많지만
울고 싶지 않아

난 괜찮아 (안 괜찮아)
너 보고 싶지 않아 (너무 보고 싶어)
맘에 없는 말들로
거짓말이라도 해야 돼 해야 돼

생각처럼 맘이 말을 듣지 않으니까
돌아와 돌아와 돌아와
절반이 없는데 어떻게 하나로 살아
울고 싶지 않아

울고 싶지 않아
울고 싶지 않아
눈물은 많지만
울고 싶지 않아

울고 싶지 않아
우리 다시 볼 때
울고 싶지 않아

Romaji

ulgo shipji ana ulgo shipji ana saranghaeseo, saranghandaneun mari bujokhaeseo, geu eotteon mareul kkeonaebwado neo hanaman akkideon nal dugoseo eodi gan geoni naega shireo eoeo jyeoseo meolli gan geoni jangnanchiji ma, geogi itneun geo ara natanal geo gata, manyang gidarida neol chajagaya dwae chajagaya dwae jigeum ulmyeon mot bolji moreunikka ulgo shipji ana ulgo shipji ana nunmureun manchiman ulgo shipji ana nasseolji aneun gil, i giri nasseolda aneun gil matneunji naege tto mudjiyo hokshina geu saram nal chatgo itji aneulkka naneun jigeum neol chatgo isseoyo jangnanchiji ma, geogi itneun geo ara natanal geo gata, manyang gidarida neol chajagaya dwae gaya haneunde nunmul goyeo jeomjeom heuryeojyeo ulgo shipji ana ulgo shipji ana nunmureun manchiman ulgo shipji ana nan gwaenchana (an gwaenchana) neo bogo shipji ana (neomu bogo shipeo) mame eopneun maldeullo geojitmarirado haeya dwae haeya dwae saenggakcheoreom mami mareul deudji aneunikka dorawa dorawa dorawa jeolbani eopneunde eotteoke hanaro sara ulgo shipji ana ulgo shipji ana ulgo shipji ana nunmureun manchiman ulgo shipji ana ulgo shipji ana uri dashi bol ttae ulgo shipji ana English Don’t wanna cry Don’t wanna cry Because I love you, because the words I love you Isn’t enough, no matter what I say I loved you so much, where’d you go? Did you leave because you don’t like me anymore? Don’t play around, I know you’re right there Feels like you’ll appear, so I’m just waiting I need to find you, need to find you Because if I cry right now, I might not see you Don’t wanna cry Don’t wanna cry I have a lot of tears But I don’t wanna cry The path that used to be familiar, it’s now unfamiliar Is this the path I know? I ask myself What if she’s looking for me? I’m looking for you right now Don’t play around, I know you’re right there Feels like you’ll appear, so I’m just waiting I need to find you, I need to go But tears well up and it’s getting blurrier Don’t wanna cry Don’t wanna cry I have a lot of tears But I don’t wanna cry I’m alright (I’m not alright) I don’t miss you (I miss you so much) With words I don’t even mean Even if they’re lies, I need to say it My heart won’t listen like I want Come back, come back, come back My other half isn’t here so how can I live as one? I don’t wanna cry Don’t wanna cry Don’t wanna cry I have a lot of tears But I don’t wanna cry Don’t wanna cry When we see each other again Don’t wanna cry

Nemu Cerpen Lama

hai..hari ini aku mau ngepost cerpen lama aku yang baru ku korek-korek dari file cerita-ceritaku. Judulnya Eyes. Ga tau sih bagus apa nggak, aku udah lama banget buat ini cerpen.

Eyes

                        “wohh..ketok pintu dulu kan bisa dek. Main nyelonong aja.” Ujar Aldo

“Untuk apa ketok dulu. Kan abang juga tau di rumah ini Cuma kita berdua.” Raina membanting tubuhnya di atas kasur saudara laki-lakinya itu.

“Mama sama papa belum pulang juga?” tanya Aldo.

“Tadi aku telpon, papa bilang besok sore baru pulang dari Bandung.” Kata Raina sambil mengotak-atik handphone milik abangnya.

“Benarkah? Kalau begitu kenapa kita masih diem aja di rumah?” Aldo membalikkan tubuhnya dari layar komputernya.

“heh?” Raina tak mengerti.

“Ayo pakai jaket. Ikut aku.” Ajak Aldo.

***

Aldo melajukan mobilnya secepat ia bisa. Raina yang duduk di sebelahnya hanya diam. Raina tak tahu kemana Aldo akan mengajaknya. Mungkin membeli makanan. Pikir Raina dalam hati.

“Abang, kita mau kemana sih? Aku ga pernah lewat sini.” Raina sibuk memandangi ke arah luar jendela.

“karena itu aku ngajak kamu kesini dek. Liat aja nanti.” Aldo masih merahasiakan hal yang ingin ditunjukkannya kepada adek perempuannya itu.

Tanpa disadari mobil berhenti, tanda mereka sudah sampai di tempat tujuan. Aldo menarik tangan Raina untuk cepat keluar dari mobil. Raina hampir jatuh dibuatnya. Karena tempatnya agak menanjak sedikit,Jadi mobil susah untuk naik.

Setelah mereka sampai di atas, betapa takjubnya Raina melihat pemandangan kota dari atas. “Waah, ini...” Raina masih membuka mulutnya lebar-lebar.

“indah kan? Ga nyesel deh, aku ajak kesini dek.” Aldo tersenyum.

Mereka berdua duduk melihat pemandangan kota yang kelap-kelip mewarnai malam itu. Mereka mulai bercerita tentang guru di sekolah mereka sampai curhat tentang teman-teman mereka.

“Abang, liat!! Ada bintang jatuh.” Kata Raina sambil menunjuk ke arah cahaya yang bergerak secepat kilat itu.

“lah, terus kenapa?” Aldo rasa tak ada yang istimewa jika ada bintang jatuh.

“ucapkan permintaan abang. Menurut mitos kan begitu.” Raina menjelaskan.

“itu Cuma mitos dek.”,

“Mana tau aja permintaan abang terwujud.”gerutu Raina.

“ya sudah, abang buat permintaan.” Aldo pun menuruti perkataan Raina.

Aldo pun menutup matanya seraya mengucapkan permintaannya dalam hati.

“abang minta apa?” Raina kepo.

“Tau ah. Rahasia dong.” Aldo tertawa.

“Udah jam 8. Pulang yok.” Raina menguap.

“Udah ngantuk aja adek abang yang satu ini, masih jam 8 udah ngantuk.” Ledek Aldo sambil berdiri dari duduknya.

***

Raina masih bergolek-golek diatas tempat tidur berlapis gambar Club bola favorit abangnya itu, Real Madrid. Sedangkan Aldo masih sibuk mengetik di komputernya.

“Abang, ngerjain apaan sih?” tanya Raina yang sedari tadi memerhatikan abangnya mengetik.

“Ini loh ada mading project dari sekolah, abang ketuanya. Jadi disuruh buat proposal kerja team madingnya.” Jelas Aldo.

“oh yodah, aku nganggu pasti. Aku ke kamar ya.” Raina menutup pintu kamar abangnya.

Raina kembali ke kamarnya. Ada alasan lain kenapa Raina meminta keluar dari kamar abangnya, kepalanya sangat pusing. Akhir-akhir ini kepala Raina sering sakit tak seperti biasanya. Rasanya sakit sekali. Tapi dia tidak mau memberi tahu abangnya, karena ia tahu abangnya sedang sibuk. Ia menahan sakit kepalanya itu sampai ia terlelap di atas tempat tidurnya.

***

Sinar matahari melewati celah-celah jendela kamar Aldo. Ia melihat jam weker bergambar bola pemberian adeknya. Jam 07.00? bisa terlambat ini. Gerutu Aldo dalam hati. Ia langsung berlari ke kamar mandi, memakai seragamnya dan memastikan semua buku pelajarannya sudah terbawa. Ia memang lembur ngetik projectnya itu sampai pukul 12 malam. Raina?? Dia udah bangun atau belum? Ya ampun aku lupa.

Aldo mencari-cari Raina di kamarnya, namun tak kunjung bertemu. Ia berlari ke bawah, dilihatnya Raina sudah menunggunya untuk sarapan.

“abang lama banget sih. Aku udah nunggu dari tadi tau!!” Raina cemberut.

“iya, tadi kesiangan. Sorry ya.” Ujar Aldo.

Mereka menikmati sarapan yang sudah disiapkan Raina sebelum Aldo bangun.

Seperti biasa, mereka mengikuti pelajaran di sekolah. Raina duduk di kelas X. Sedangkan Aldo satu tingkat lebih tinggi darinya, kelas XI. Mereka satu sekolah, dan hampir setiap hari selalu berangkat dan pulang bersama. Walaupun Raina sering menunggu sampai sore, sampai abangnya selesai membuat mading projectnya itu bersama rekan-rekannya.

Seusai bel sekolah bunyi, Raina dan teman-temannya biasanya ke kedai kopi di sekitar sekolah. Namun di  tengah perjalanan, Yola teman Raina di tabrak rombongan kakak kelas yang sepertinya bermusuhan dengan Yola.

“eh, jalan pake mata dong kak.” Gerutu Feni.

“mata gue lagi rabun. Sorry ye. Hahaha” ujar kakak kelas itu.

“pantes nabrak. Tadi gue kira malah buta.” Kata Raina.

“eh, mulut jaga ya.”,

“kelakuan lu tu yang dijaga kak. Mentang tua dari kita lu seenaknya doang.” Raina membantah omongan kakak kelas itu.

“berani lu ngomong kek gitu di depan kakak kelas hah??” kakak kelas itu mulai emosi.

“kakak kelas kayak lu mah, kagak ada yang takut. Lu sekali banting, tewas.” Feni membalas.

Saat kakak kelas itu hendak memukul Feni, Raina segera menahan tangannya dan menjatuhkannya ke tanah. Kakak kelas itu pun kesakitan. Sampai seorang laki-laki yang mungkin pacar kakak itu datang. Bukan hanya sekedar pacar kakak kelas itu, tapi Raina terkejut bukan main. Lelaki itu adalah abangnya sendiri.

“Raina, kamu apain dia?” tanya Aldo.

“dia yang duluan ganggu Yola sama Feni.” Raina membela dirinya.

“Tapi itu ga baik, Raina!” Aldo mulai marah.

“Tapi bang..”,

“Ga boleh kayak gitu sama kakak kelas, ngertii!!” gertak Aldo.

“Dia itu jahat bang.” Raina masih membalas kata-kata abangnya.

“Kamu udah mencelakainya,Raina! Adek macam apa kamu! Jangan pernah panggil aku abang lagi.” Raina tercengan mendengar ucapan abangnya itu.

Raina hanya menatap punggung abangnya itu yang semakin hilang di pinggir jalan. Raina harus menerima kenyataan ini, dimana ia kehilangan abang tersayangnya. Raina duduk di halte menunggu bus jurusan rumahnya datang. Tidak ada lagi abang yang menjemputnya, tidak ada lagi abang yang mengantarnya. Sungguh sedih Raina hari itu.

Sesampainya di rumah, papa dan mama sudah tiba dari Bandung. Kedua orang tua mereka jarang sekali memerhatikan mereka. Saat Raina sedih seperti ini orang tuanya tidak akan tahu.

“besok aku akan keluar kota bersama guru-guru dan team mading projectku. Aku disana kurang lebih selama sebulan. Jaga dirimu baik-baik.” Ujar Aldo sambil menutup pintu kamar adeknya itu.

Raina menangis semalaman, ia tak mengerti abangnya menjadi seperti itu. Dia bukan seperti orang yang dikenal Raina lagi. Aldo membenci Raina saat ini. Raina sudah membuat kekasihnya terluka. Hanya ada boneka pemberian abangnya saat Raina ulang tahun waktu itu yang sekarang menemani Raina dalam kesedihannya, Valina.

***

Hari-hari Raina kini dipenuhi dengan kesedihan. Dia sendiri, kesepian. Dia sangat merindukan abangnya. Sampai suatu malam karena lelah menangis, Raina merasa kepalanya makin sakit dan ia tak kuat berdiri. Dan akhirnya Raina tak sadarkan diri.

Orang tuanya membawa Raina ke rumah sakit untuk diperiksa. Dokter mengatakan Raina terserang penyakit kanker otak. Raina terkejut bukan main. Selama ini sakit kepala yang ia abaikan adalah kanker. Dan dokter memvonis Raina hanya bisa bertahan selama sebulan lagi.

“Ma, tolong jangan beritahu hal ini kepada abang. Nanti dia khawatir.” Ujar Raina.

***

Tidak terasa besok Aldo akan pulang ke rumah. Raina membuat cupcakes kesukaan abangnya itu. Ia harus menyiapkan semuanya sebelum abangnya pulang. Malam itu, Raina berjalan keluar bersama Raldi karena ingin membeli tepung di swalayan. Kebetulan saat di jalan ia bertemu Raldi, jadi ia tidak kesepian. Raina mencoba menelpon abangnya, namun tak ada jawaban. Berulang kali ia mencoba, tetap tidak aktif.

“kamu khawatir sama abang kamu ya, Na?”tanya Raldi.

“Iya lah, dia kan abang aku. Walaupun dia ga nganggap aku sebagai adeknya lagi.” Ujar Raina sambil menggenggam handphonenya.

Tiba-tiba handphone Raina berdering, dari nomor abangnya. Raina senang sekali abangnya mau menelponnya lagi. Tapi, Raina salah.

“Halo, ini keluarga saudara Revaldo?” suara itu mengagetkan Raina.

“Ya saya adeknya. Ini siapa? Abang saya kenapa?”,

“saudara Revaldo baru saja mengalami kecelakaan. Dan sekarang ada di Rumah Sakit Bersama.” Ujar perawat itu.

Raina langsung berlari menerobos hujan yang begitu lebat dan meninggalkan payungnya dengan Raldi di swalayan. Ia takut terjadi apa-apa dengan abangnya.

Sesampainya di rumah sakit, Raina terus menatapi wajah abangnya yang terbaring lemas diatas ranjang. Bajunya basah kuyup karena hujan. Papa dan mama juga terus menunggu kepastian dokter. Beberapa menit kemudian, dokter keluar dari ruangan Aldo.

“begini pak, buk. Aldo mengalami benturan keras di sekitar matanya. Membuat saraf pada matanya putus, kemungkinan Aldo akan mengalami kebutaan.” Ujar dokter tersebut.

“Ambil mata saya dok.” Ucap mama.

“mata saya aja dok.” Ujar papa bergantian.

“saya harus mempertimbangkan dulu pak. Tidak bisa sembarang mata.” Kata dokter itu.

***

“Besok nonton abang tanding bola ya?” tanya Aldo.

“Hmm.. oke deh.”,

“Jalan keluar yuk.” Ajak Aldo.

“boleh.” Ujar Raina.

“Raina, kamu ga usah ikut keluar.” Larang papa.

“aku kuat pa.” Ujar Raina.

“itu sebelum kamu ..” kata-kata papa terhenti.

“Aku masih kuat papa.”.

Raina berjalan keluar rumah bersama abangnya. Aldo agak aneh melihat Raina. Sepertinya ia sulit berjalan, selain itu ia kesulitan mencari arah. Ia selalu menggenggam tangan abangnya.

Hari ini Aldo akan tanding bola. Ia senang sudah bisa melihat lagi. Setelah kemarin pembalut di matanya telah dibuka. Ia menunggu kedatangan Raina. Namun setelah babak kedua di mulai pun Raina tak kunjung datang.

Saat ini Aldo akan melakukan penalti terakhir. Dia harus mencetak gol kali ini. Dia ingin Raina melihatnya. Dan ternyata benar saja, Raina baru saja datang. Melihat Raina datang, Aldo langsung menendang bola ke gawang lawan dan GOL. Tapi sayang, kebahagiaan Aldo pupus seketika, melihat adeknya jatuh tersungkur di pintu masuk gor.

***

“Gue nyesel, nyia-nyiain dia, nyusahin dia, buat dia nangis. Sekarang gue bisa apa? Dia udah pergi jauh.” Ujar Aldo kepada sahabatnya.

“Lo harus relain dia pergi bro, lo udah jadi abang yang baik buat dia kok.”,

“ya thanks bro. Jadi kita kerja kelompok?” tanya Aldo.

“Yoi.”,

“tapi komputer gue lagi rusak. Minjem laptop adek gue aja kali ya. Udah lama ga dia pake.” Ujar Aldo.

Aldo masuk ke kamar adeknya itu, Ia benar-benar merindukan sosok adeknya. Saat ia ingin mengambil laptop Raina. Diatas laptop itu, ada secarik kertas kecil.

“Untuk abangku tercinta,

Aku kangen abang, aku rindu melihat bintang jatuh bersama abang. Aku ingin terus di dekat abang. Aku minta maaf atas kejadian waktu itu. Aku sadar aku salah.

Abang, apapun akan kulakukan asal abang senang. Ada satu hal yang kuminta dari abang. Jangan pernah meninggalkanku, membenciku ataupun menganggap aku tidak ada. Karena aku sayang banget sama abang.

Raina.”

Saat Aldo menekan tombol On pada laptop Raina, ternyata laptop itu dalam keadaan hibernate. Berarti Raina menggunakan laptop ini sebelum dia meninggal.

Aldo sedih sekali, ternyata Raina membuat video untuknya. Penyesalan selalu datang terakhir.

“Raina, kamu bohong. Kamu bilang dengan mengucapkan permintaan saat bintang jatuh akan dikabulkan permintaan itu. Saat itu Aku meminta agar bisa melihat bintang jatuh lagi bersamamu , Raina adekku yang kusayang. Tapi apa? Kamu meninggalkanku lebih dulu.”

Stephany Raina Salwa & Revaldo Anggara.

#EditPict ChoHan ^^

Time For You (ChoHan Fanfiction)

Title: Time for you

Author: xiaohunhae (Dhiya Iftina)

Main cast : Xi Luhan, Park Chorong                  

Rating : PG-15

Length : Oneshot

Genre : romance, friendship,hurt

“I’m just scared if i lost my time to stay in your side”

            Sun still show a bright light in Seoul. A man looked so happy to walk around the mall. Until he decided to stop in a famous ice cream cafe, Angelica. He often visited this cafe if he was tired or just to relaxing his mind.

“Aaa..Luhan-ah. Where are you? Long time no see.”asked the man with a thick moustache.

“Hahaha, i’m busy to prepare my new school, ahjussi. So now i come here to see you.” He said.

“Okay, please just sit. I’ll call the waitress.” That man walked and leaving Luhan alone.

            Now, Luhan really busy to continue his school in university. He has followed many test and he hope there’s one pass.

“Exucuse me, what kind of ice cream do you want?” asked the waitress.

“Hmm..Like usual.”,

“Oh, i’m sorry. I’m new waitress here.” She said.

“Chonila Ice Cream. How long have you been worked here?” Luhan asked that girl.

“For two weeks. Okay, i’ll get the ice cream.” Then she just leaving Luhan behind.           

            Luhan stared at that girl so long. Looked one by one of her appearance. Her hair, her eyes, and her smile. There’s something different from her smile. She is wonderful. Luhan said to his heart.

“This is for you.” She came and put the ice cream on my table.

“Oh, gomawoyo.” Said Luhan.

“Ne, gwenchana.” A beautiful smile created by her small lips.

            While Luhan still focus on his ice cream, something bad happened. Someone slipped and all of the ice cream that she bring fall on Luhan’s shirt.

“Omoo..what is this??!” Luhan feel so emotional. She is the girl that bring the ice cream for him just now.

“Oh, mianhaeyo. I do that unintentionally. I’m really sorry.” Then she cleaned the ice cream in Luhan’s shirt.

“you make my shirt dirty. Oh my god. Just go there.” Luhan really angry and ask the girl to go.

“What happen here? Omoo..Luhan-ah, your shirt.” Kim ahjussi come to see what happened there.

“because of her..” Luhan point that girl.

“Park Chorong-ah, how can you do this to our costumer? You just work here for this two weeks, but you already make a fool. You’re fired, chorong-ah.” He fire that girl.

“Nde, Kim Ahjussi. Jeongmal mianhae for this. Thanks for all, ahjussi.” Then that girl who has name Park Chorong take off her uniform and just leave the cafe.

            Luhan just quiet, and feel really guilty now. Why didn’t he just say it’s okay and believe that what she just do right now is unintentionally.

***

Park Chorong Pov’s

            What? I was fired? I can’t believe this. Until now, i’m still crying in my bedroom. This is my chance to get money but ..uuhh.. I really hate that man. I’ve talked to him that all of it just unintentionally. But he still pointed on me in front of Kim Ahjussi.

“Chorong-ah, You already crying for 4 hours. Come on, We will have a dinner.” Said oppa.

“okay okay, i’ll go.” Then i go to dining room to have a dinner.

“What’s wrong ,Cho?” ask Umin Oppa.

“I was fired, oppa.”,

“How can?” He asked again.

“I dropped ice cream to costumer, It’s unintentionally oppa. I slipped at that time.” I try to explain to Umin Oppa.

“It’s okay chorong-ah. Just stop to work. You need to focus to your new university.” Said Umin oppa.

“Nde oppa. Tomorrow is the registration right?”,

“Yap, and i’ll accompany you. Go to your bed, you must get up really early tomorrow.” Umin oppa take me up to my bedroom.

            Ah, tomorrow is my first time in my new school. It’s not school anymore, it’s university. I passed in Dongguk University, same with Umin oppa. So i can call him, if i need him there. Welcome to Dream World. And i started to close my eyes slowly.

***

Author Pov’s

            Chorong and her brother Xiumin walked enter the university. Really crowded there. Xiumin struggling to find where’s the place to have a registration. Until that voice make me shocked.

“Oh, Umin hyung!!” ,

“Luhan-ah, You will continue your study here?” asked Xiumin to him.

“Ne, hyung. Really happy to meet you here. So you’re my senior.”,

            Chorong really shocked than before. After she looked at that boy. He was the man who made Kim Ahjussi fired her.

“Wah, same with my sister. Oh ya, this is my sister, Park Chorong.” Xiumin introduced Chorong to Luhan.

“Mwo? You??!” Luhan’s eyes become bigger after he saw Chorong there.

“Wae? Are you happy after saw Kim Ahjussi fired me?!” Chorong said emotionally.

“I didn’t know it will be like that. Sorry then.” Luhan said.

“Oh, i understand now. So he was the man that you said to me yesterday, Chorong-ah?” asked Xiumin.

“Nde, oppa. I really hate him.” Chorong didn’t want to see Luhan.

“I already say sorry to you. Arasseo, if you still hate me. I hate you too.”,

“Omoo.. Be careful guys. Hate become Love.” Xiumin laughed.

“Kyaaa..oppa. What do you say???” Chorong hit Xiumin with her bag.

***

            After Xiumin already helped Chorong to have registration, Xiumin just left her with Suho. Xiumin know Suho really closed. They’ve been together for 4 years. Same with chorong, they became a best friend since Suho joined basketball club with chorong.

“Chorong-ah, when will our club have a competition with Busan Club? I can’t wait for it.” Asked Suho while his hand still busy with his PSP.

“I don’t know, but i have talked to them. And they just need the best time for it.”,

“How about the recruitment of our new member?” Suho still focus on his PSP.

“Next week i think. Yaa.. Stop to play with that PSP.” Chorong take Suho’s PSP from him.

“Kyaa..That’s the last level, Chorong-ah!!” suho get angry then.

“You can broke your eyes. Haha..Your face become funny, if you angry like that.” Chorong just laughed at Suho.

“Come on, let’s go to our class. And give it to me back.” ,

“Ani, I’ll give it to you after this class. Haha.” They walked together to their class.

            In the class, Chorong sit beside Suho. And finally, a woman with her short hair come into the class. Oh, she is the Lecturer. Thought Chorong.

“Annyeonghaseyo, welcome to Dongguk University. And nice to meet you all. I’m Yoon Jin Ra. Just call me Jin Ra.”,

“Annyeonghaseyo Jin Ra seonsaengnim.” All of the collageus said it together.

“Okay, we will start now...” Jin Ra seonsaengnim just stop talk because someone came late.

“Exucuse me, may i enter the class?” He asked politely.

“Oh, sure. Please sit there.” Said Jin Ra seonsaengnim.

            Today is a really bad day for chorong. She is in a same class with Luhan. This stupid boy again. Said chorong in her heart.

“Okay, I have something to solve. So, you just doing that discussion untill this class end.” Jin Ra seonsaengnim left the class.

“Omoo.. how can i sit in front of this silly girl.” Said Luhan.

“Hey, Do you think i want to sit here? Huh? Paboya.” Chorong kick Luhan’s chair.

“Just move then.” Now Luhan staring at Chorong.

“Naega wae? You must move then, because you come late.” Said Chorong.

“What are you talking about guys?” Suho confused to see them.

“Shut up..” said them in a same time.

“Oh okay.” Then Suho just take his PSP from Chorong’s drawer.

“why are you looking at me? Hah?” Chorong look back at Luhan eyes.

“So what? You’re a bad girl, Noona.”,

“mwoya? Noona? You didn’t know me, and now you just call me noona.”,

“Wae? You looked like ahjumma, actually. Haha.” Luhan laughed and go out from class.

“I HATE YOU..” Chorong yelling as strong as she can.

“Stop it, Chorong-ah. You really disturb me.” Said Suho.

“Hey, since when you can take that PSP?” Chorong realize that Suho already take his PSP back.

“Since you fight with that boy.”,

***

            The class has finished since 1 hour ago. But Xiumin hasn’t come yet. Chorong just waited for him, while Suho already go back to his home with his car.

“Chorong-ah..” someone called her name.

“Oh, oppa. What’s wrong?”,

“Mianhae chorong-ah. I have a group project today. I’ll come home later. It’s okay?”,

“Oh, okay. I’ll take bus or taxi. Bye oppa. Fighting..” Then chorong start to find taxi.

            When chorong walked out from school, someone called her behind. Then chorong looked at him.

“Hey, silly girl. Want to go home with me?” asked Luhan.

“Mwo? Go home with you? After you call me silly? Ah, no.”,

“Because that’s the reality. Come on. it will be rain.” ,

“No, thanks. I can go by taxi.” Chorong refuse Luhan.

“Okay then. I’ll go, silly girl.” Then Luhan drive his car very fast.

***

            Chorong went to school without Xiumin. And now she’s got new friend, Naeun. She sit behind Chorong and now they become bestfriend. Chorong eat her gimbap slowly and then...BRUKKK!!

            Chorong became wet now and it’s not just that, her biology project must broken because of that. And that man is Luhan. He slipped and dropped his bubble tea in front of Chorong. Same condition when she dropped the ice cream to Luhan.

“KYAA..LUHAN!! MY PROJECT!!”,

“oh? Mianhae. It’s really slippery here.” Luhan said.

            Then chorong was crying looked at her project. Naeun try to make chorong fine.

“Chorong-ah , it’s okay. We can say it to Ji Suk seonsaengnim.” Said Naeun.

“But today is the last day to collect it.” Chorong still crying.

            Luhan took Chorong’s project and left his glass there. Chorong and Naeun came to the class. Luhan already sit there without feel guilty.

“Okay, all of you bring your project to me now. And if you don’t bring it , stand up.” Said Ji Suk seonsaengnim.

            At that time, Chorong want to stand up from her chair, but.. Luhan put his project in Chorong’s table. Chorong just silent and say nothing. And Luhan stand up from his chair.

“Luhan-ah, this is still the first semester but you didn’t do your project.” Said Ji Suk seonsaengnim.

“Mianhae, seonsaengnim.”,

“Now, go out and run while bring your chair around the field, 10 times.” ,

            Luhan bring his chair and start to run. Chorong still sit in her chair, she opened Luhan’s project and there’s a paper in front.

-Chorong-ah, Mianhae. Just collect my project to Ji Suk seonsaengnim. It’s okay for me.-

            Then chorong give Luhan’s project to Ji Suk seonsaengnim. Luhan already change his name with Chorong’s name at that project.

“Oh ya, Please attention all. I’ll give you one more project but it will be group. There are 2 person each group. The person who sit in a whole numbers line,your partner will be the person that sit in front of you. Okay?”,

“Nde, seonsaengnim.” All of us said.

“Now, you can start to do your project with your partner.” Said Ji Suk seonsaengnim.

            Chorong just quiet in her chair. Luhan will be her partner. And now, Luhan still in outside doing his punishment. Chorong didn’t believe that Luhan will do this to her.

Xi Luhan Pov’s

            I sit on the bench under the tree. Now, i take my breath deeply. Ah, it’s too tired running around the field ten times non-stop. But It’s okay, i don’t want to make her sad again. Slowly, i heard that voice. Come to me.

“Hmm..Luhan oppa. Gwenchana?” She give me a can of cola.

“Nae gwenchana, Chorong-ah. Why suddenly you call me ‘oppa’?” i asked her.

“Oh, i see your identity card in your wallet. This is your bag.” Said Chorong.

“Thanks then. Is there any task from Ji suk seonsaengnim?”,

“Ya, there is. It will be group. Ji Suk seonsaengnim choosed me to be your partner.” Her eyes keep looking at the field.

“mwo? With you?”,

“Ne, waeyo? I know you don’t like it.”,

“I think you won’t be happy then if you work in pair with me.”,

“It’s okay, oppa. Let’s do it in Hangang Park and after that we can do cycling.”,

“Okay, chorong-ah. I’ll pick you up. Bye.” I walked from there and go home quickly.

***

            Today i’ll pick Chorong up and we will doing our project together. I take my watch and...what?? March 3rd? It’s chorong birthday. Oh my god, how can i forgot her birthday. I must buy something for her. I don’t know since when, I feel really different if i met her. I always nervous if i met her. Is this called Love?

            I drive my car faster than before, and stop at the jewellery shop. I want to buy something for her. After that i go to Chorong’s house.

“Excuse me, Can i meet with Chorong-ssi?” i asked to the security in front of her house.

“Tadaaaa.. I’m here.” Chorong appeared suprisingly.

“Omoo..You make me shock..”,

“Kajja, we go to Hangang Park.” Said chorong, while she bring the project to my car.

“You looked really happy today, Chorong-ah.”,

“Mmm..ne. Because i can go to there with you.”,

“Oh jinjja? Don’t you ever say that you really hate me, chorong-ah?”,

“Used to be, I really hate you. But nowadays the situation is different, oppa.” She said.

“Oh, i see. So now, you like me, Chorong-ah?”,

“Kyaa.. i don’t say that I like you..”,

“I can see from your eyes.” I said .

“My eyes can’t speak, oppa..”,

“Your eyes can’t speak directly, but your eyes said it to my heart. Haha.” I laughed.

“Don’t make a joke, oppa..” She hit me with her books.

            We arrived at Hangang Park now. She looks happier than yesterday. Her smile look so brightly.

“Oppa, kajja. Sit here.” She sit on the grass.

“This is your bullshit project..” i throw it away.

“That’s not mine, But that’s ours, oppa.”,

“Hmm..chorong-ah, i wanna say something. May i?”,

“What’s that oppa?”,

            Then, I hold her hand bravely. She’s really confused now.

“Saengil Chukkae Hamnida, Chorong-ah...”,

“Mwo? Today is my birthday?” Chorong forget her birthday.

“Ah, you forgot your birthday, silly girl.” I give a small box to her.

“What’s this oppa?”,

“Just open it.”,

“Woaaaa... It’s really pretty oppa. For me?”,

“Ne, it’s for you. And the other one is for me.”,

            I put that ring on Chorong’s finger. And i put another one on my finger.

“Gomawoyo oppaa..”then she hug me suddenly.

“Ne cheonma, Chorong-ah. Let’s do our project.”.

            After we’ve done our project, we are cycling around Hangang Park.

“Chorong-ah..”,

“Ne oppa?”,

“Hmm... do you wanna make my life more complete, chorong-ah?” I decide to talk it now.

“I can’t answer it now, oppa.”

“it’s okay, chorong-ah. I know you won’t accepted my love.” I said.

“Aniyaa..it’s not like that. I just need time to think.” Chorong said.

***

            April 20th 2012,

“Oppa, don’t open your eyes.” Said Chorong that stand beside me and show me the direction.

“what place is this? I step on grass right?”,

“Nde, just quiet. You will know then.”..

            I know today is my birthday. And now i don’t know why chorong doing this to me. She take me to somewhere, and i can’t open my eyes now.

“Oppa, open your eyes now”,

            Slowly, i open my eyes. Omoo.. i’m on the top of hill now.

“Wah, it’s wonderful Chorong-ah, looking at Seoul from here. But.. you don’t know that i’m scared with high.” I feel scared now.

“I know it, oppa.” Chorong said.

“So, why you take me to here? It’s terrifying, chorong-ah”,

“Because, i want to make you feel happy to be here , not to be scared anymore.”,

“Oh ya? How can .”,

“Oppa, i wanna answer your question before.” ,

“Mwo? What question?”,

“Question that you gave on my birthday, oppa. Ah, you’re really old. You are difficult in remembering” Chorong pouted.

“Oh, i’m sorry. I’m really forget. So what’s your answer, chorong-ah?” i’m so nervous now.

            Then she hold my hands tightly, oh my god, my heart beat so fastly.

“Chorong-ah? So what’s your answer?” i asked again.

“Mwo? This is my answer.” She said while she show me our hands.

“So, you accept my love, chorong-ah?”,

“Ne, This is your present for your birthday. I can’t give anything, except this.”.

            i hug her, and i’m really happy today. Oh god, thanks for giving me this wonderful present for my birthday. I’ll keep her heart and i don’t want to make her sad anymore.

Park Chorong Pov’s

            It’s almost a year, i’ve been with my love, Luhan oppa. Everyday , he always accompany me where i want. I know he won’t broke my heart anymore. He give his second present for my birthday, after one year a go he gave me a pair of ring. He gave me, a packet of cosmetics. I’m really happy to be with him. Stay in his side. I hope it will be forever. Suddenly, he sent me a message.

[Xi Luhan]

-Chorong-ah, i have something to talk.

[Park Chorong]

-Nde, oppa? Just say it.

[Xi Luhan]

-I think, tomorrow i’ll go back to Beijing, dear.

[Park Chorong]

-Waeyo? Do you wanna leave me alone?

[Xi Luhan]

-Aniya, that’s not like that. I just want to find job there. Coz after this semester, my dad asked me to go back to China.

[Park Chorong]

-So How about me?

[Xi Luhan]

-Calm, girl. I still can visited you here. After you finished your college and your business here. I’ll take you to China too. Okay?

[Park Chorong]

-It’s so sad, oppa :’(

[Xi Luhan]

-Don’t cry, baby. Okay? Maybe, i’ll see you again next month.

            Mwoya? He want to go to China? And leave me alone without him? Don’t make our time become short, oppa.

***

            Firstly, he really visited me once a month. But now, almost 8 months he never visited me anymore. What happen with him? He has a new girlfriend there? I try to called him, but his number never active. Come on oppa. Tell me where are you, why you never called me, why you never visited me anymore? I’m so lonely here without you ...

Xi Luhan Pov’s

            It’s already 8 months , i never communicated with her again. Mianhae chorong-ah..

I can’t tell this to you.

“Luhan-ssi, You got tumor on your brain. You must do an operation then.”,

“Oh, how long i’ve got this tumor, doctor?”

“It’s already for a long time that tumor fell ill in your brain, boy.”

            I can’t forget that conversation. That makes me can’t do anything in my life, include to visited my love, Chorong. Now, this tumor become bigger. But i don’t want to do an operation. Doctor said,  it’s not sure i can live after the operation. So now i just can sleep in this hospital, quiet, and wait my time to leave this world forever. I don’t want to make chorong sad because of this. So, i just leave her and never tell her about this. Jeongmal mianhae chorong-ah.

Author Pov’s

            Chorong walked slowly on that small road. She can’t stop her tears to fall down. Her face really wet now. She can’t talk anything, after someone tell her something yesterday. Now she stand in front of that name. The name that she really know, someone who gives his love for chorong for this 2 years. She put that flower on that stone.

Xi Luhan

Haidian, Beijing. April 20th 1990.

March, 1st 2014

            He leave chorong forever, 2 days before her birthday. Tumor. That’s the reason, why Luhan can’t communicated with chorong anymore, can’t visited her anymore. Chorong didn’t know all about this. And now, she’s too late to said sorry to him.

“Eonni..” Luhan’s sister come behind her.

“Oh, nde?” chorong erase her tears.

“Luhan oppa, have something for you.” She give a paper to chorong.

“What’s this?” asked Chorong.

“I think that’s a video for you. Just watch it.”

“Gomawoyo.” Said chorong.

            After she arrived at home, she click the link that Luhan’s sister gave to her. That’s true, it is a video for her. Chorong’s tears fall down suddenly, after she watch the video. She just hold the ring that Luhan gave to her tightly...

***

“Chorong-ah, Mianhaeyo. I can’t stay in your side anymore. It’s really scared, to lose my time to stay in your side. Don’t cry. Just smile, and remember what the most unforgottable thing when we still together.”

-Xi Luhan-

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